Beginning Blog Weight: 277
Weight Last Week (Week Six): 257.5
Weight Tues morning 7/14 (Week Seven): 249.5 wow!
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Weeks Overview and Plans
4 days of 'moderating' higher fat salty gourmet (at work), followed by 3 days of no salt 80-10-10 (off of work). From 258 to 249.5.
Today is Wednesday. I just got weighed again today and i'm 251 1/4 today...but yesterdays weight will remain my official for this week, yahoo. I had gotten weighed after a walk, so perhaps it was a low reading after sweating? But, i still enjoyed it!!!
** bloating update: i suspect chlorella tabs have high sodium. i had quite a few yesterday. my fingers were really swollen during my walk this morning, wednesday. maybe 249.5 wasn't a 'low weight', maybe 251 1/4 is a little bloated from sodium. that's an exciting prospect...that 249.5 was a 'real weight'!
I'm off of work again today, and I work on Thursday and Friday. I'm looking forward to 'some' gourmet then... I'd like it if my weight doesn't go up as high as 258.... Perhaps i will choose to moderate on the restrained side. I'm thinking that might be a nice way to feel a better sense of control, mixed with permission, and not feeling like I 'blew' it.
There are all levels of moderation. Maybe i can stay on the low end, i mean, not go hog wild? Again, i'll listen to ME. Perhaps i can succeed in losing VERY VERY SLOWLY...over time? i.e. [Weight goes up (gourmet), down (80-10-10). The next week: up alittle less, down alittle more. The next week: up a little less, down a little more....inching my way DOWN!!!]
* * salt: I also want to try for celtic salt ONLY and no nama shoyu or olives. Nama shoyu has wheat (addictive) in it, and the olives we use at the store don't use sea salt. I'm going to see 'scientifically' how using only celtic salt affects my desires/weight. I've recently been told celtic salt should not make a person bloat or hold water. We shall see!!
NEW GOALS EXPLAINED:
- Eliminate Binge Eating completely.
- 'Legalize' gourmet raw food by allowing myself heavier meals from time to time, especially at work, in order not to feel deprived, and not to binge.
- Officially weigh in 1x/week, but check in for myself when i want
- All heavy meals (salty, fatty or extra sweet, raw vegan) are to be eaten INTENTIONALLY, PURPOSEFULLY, ATTENTIVELY, CALMLY, JOYFULLY, and always, always, always SEATED.
- No guilt, no shame, no hiding, no secret eating, no snacking while standing.
- Continue to eat when hungry. Stop when 'pleasantly' satisfied.
- Ultimately succeed in eating 'less' gourmet overall, because 'moderating' eliminates restricting too severely, and then binging out of control in rebellion.
- Maintain the same weight "zone" of 250-ish for the next several weeks, accepting temporary weight gains from salt as 'normal'.
- Maintain a schedule of walking!
- Return to my 80-10-10 based diet of mostly fruit, greens, low fat, low/no salt to equalize, balance out, de-bloat, lose, when able. Add as much fat as i need to keep from bingeing.
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FOOD/ACTIVITY for yesterday, Tuesday, July 14
EXERCISE: 1 nice walk, forgot my watch. At least 40 mins.
Breakfast: 1 leftover blueberry smoothie (blueberries, banana, water);
Still hungry! 'blueberry coconut icecream' (frozen blueberries/bananas, vanilla, coconut flakes, agave, only a little water to get the vitamix going, stir around 'icecream' with spoon to use less liquid.) yummo!
Lunch: zucchini spaghetti with tomato sauce (spiralized zucchini; blenderized fresh red jersey tomatoes, fresh garlic, fresh basil, lemon juice, 1 tsp raw almond butter, 2 tbsp nutritional yeast, red pepper flakes.) delish! ; 1/4 of a small watermelon for dessert
Early Dinner, 5pm: Chopped salad: romaine, red onion, 1 tsp almond butter, lemon juice, zucchini, tomato, garlic. First taste, i said, "blech". Last bite, i said, 'mmm, that was good."
Off to the movies tonight to see "Food, Inc."!!! I'll bring some fruit.
EXERCISE: Walk to the train station, 10 mins
Snack: waiting for train, 6 handfuls bing cherries, delish.
Snack: grapes, and the rest of the cherries during the film. Buttered popcorn? USED to be a HUMONGOUS addiction. Now i bring FRUIT. yum.
Snack: 3 handfuls chlorella tabs in the car. Got a ride home with Tim and Leslie Arnold, LOVE THEM!!!
Snack: hungry! strawberry/banana icecream sundae (3 frozen bananas, 4 frozen strawberries, vanilla, agave, 1 tsp almond butter, filtered water - only enough to make a thick 'custard' in vitamix - mix with spoon to avoid having to put alot of water in), topped with coconut flakes - yum!
BINGE PROOFED SUNDAE: i was sooo hungry! the first icecream i made had no fat in it. it was just okay, wasn't really sweet enough, and didn't really match my hunger. If I was being a hard-ass dieter who didn't allow herself to 'moderate' from time to time, THIS would have been an EXCELLENT set up to become a binge. I felt that feeling...of 'deprivation.' Instead, i allowed myself to make myself satisfied by adding a little almond butter and some more agave, to satisfy my hunger. It tasted better, but more important, psychologically, i was satisfied. What's so conplex about this whole thing is that the extra fat may not be 'healthier' for me, but psychologically and physically, if it avoids a binge, it definitely IS the healthiest choice!
In total, I had 3 tsp of almond butter today.
You know what? that's better than eating the entire container, plus 10 peices of raw bread, like i normally would! I'm getting BETTER!!!!
**candida update** - the candida continues to be an issue. I'm itchy and burning in my tush. It's really going to have to be a reality until i can work towards getting the psychological food needs addressed by moderation...and i can work on lowering my overall fat intake overtime. If i go fat free, then binge, what's really the point?
**AMOUNTS: my hunger has been turning off sooner than i'm accustomed to, and it's kind of freaking me out. If i'm going to listen...i need to be very quiet, tune in, pay attention...and stop eating when i've had enough (when my taste buds turn off or the hungry feeling leaves)
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It was an Arnolds Way Field Trip last night to see "Food, Inc." at the Ritz at the Bourse last night for FREE c/o a promotion by Chipotle Grill.
It was so good to see everyone! Sharon and Peter were there. Carol Schwinger. Tim and Leslie Arnold. Megan and Tim. Arnold, and Karen and Zack. And I got rave reviews on my new figure! My dear friends, Tim and Leslie, have not seen me since the beginning of May and they said there is a HUGE difference! That felt SOOO good. (Cliff's has the camera, so i couldn't take a picture!!)!
"Food, Inc." was intensely moving, educational, well done, influential, powerful. Life changing!HIGHLY RECOMMENDED!!!
Online Synopsis: Documentary filmmaker Robert Kenner uses reports by Fast Food Nation author Eric Schlosser and The Omnivore's Dilemma author Michael Pollan as a springboard to exploring where the food we purchase at the grocery store really comes from, and what it means for the health of future generations. By exposing the comfortable relationships between business and government, Kenner gradually shines light on the dark underbelly of the American food industry. The USDA and FDA are supposed to protect the public, so why is it that both government regulatory agencies have been complicit in allowing corporations to put profit ahead of consumer health, the American farmer, worker safety, and even the environment? As chicken breasts get bigger and tomatoes are genetically engineered not to go bad, 73,000 Americans fall ill from powerful new strains of E. coli every year, obesity levels are skyrocketing, and adult diabetes has reached epidemic proportions. Perhaps if the general public knew how corporations use exploited laws and subsidies to create powerful monopolies, the outrage would be enough to make us think more carefully about the food we put into our bodies. -
GO SEE IT AND TELL EVERYONE YOU KNOW TO SEE IT!!!!!
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FOOD/ACTIVITY - Wed, July 15, 2009
Br: Cacao Coconut "Milk" - a very thin smoothie, more like a banana milk (2 frozen banana, 3 cups filtered water, vanilla, 1/4 cup coconut flakes, 2 tbsp cacao, agave.) yum!
EXERCISE: 40 mins walk. Had to drop the car off for service and walk home. What a JOY! Will likely have to walk 40 mins back to the shop later to pick it up!!!
Lunch: hungry! 2 nori wraps with chopped salad inside (pulse chop with s blade: 1/2 zucchini, 1/2 red tomato, 1 small clove garlic, squeeze lemon, handful chopped celery, small slice red onion, 2 Tbsp cashew butter. ginger). Spread half on bottom of each raw nori wrap, add a layer of diced red tomato. roll up and secure by adding a thin smear of water to top 1/3 of nori wrap and roll into sushi roll. Cut into 6 rounds with serated knife.
This wasn't delicious at first, then i LOVED it and wished i had more. Felt very hungry for fat. This satisfied me, but was higher in fat than i've been eating. Had felt VERY hungry.
Snack: 1/2 of a medium watermelon.
Only slept 5 hours last night, and after my walk took a 3 hour nap! I was zonked. After my watermelon, i seemed to feel a bit better, but overall, i'm feeling yucky. I don't know if i'm in detox, or what...just don't feel great. very tired. Totally enjoyed my walk. Had plenty of energy for that. Maybe i'm just fatigued from walking daily.
Dinner: hungry! 4 raw corn on the cob. Feel better now. maybe i was just hungry.
Dinner II: hungry again!!!! zucchini spaghetti with fresh tomato sauce (1 whole large zucchini spiralized; blenderized sauce of 2 ripe red jersey tomatoes, 1 clove of garlic, 4 shakes of cumin, 1 tsp olive oil, a few shakes of red pepper flakes, a squeeze of lemon. Pour sauce ontop, add 2 Tbsp of nutrional yeast on top...like parmesan cheese! The yeast adds minimal fat, sodium, but tons of cheesy-like flavor and B Vitamins. Again, the first taste was 'blah,' but then totally enjoyed it, so much. yum.
Snack: 1/2 medium watermelon. hungry!!!
Cliff is home, yay!
xxoxoxoxox, michelle joy